صئ تط سسس غضع"
That is arabic. It's very hard to read...it's even harder to write...I am not arabic, but I have decided that I am going to only write in arabic (starting RIGHT after I finish this blog post...of course)
This is an attempt to take back my soul from this blog. When white producers and money men started to steal jazz from the black artists who created it and water it down for mass white consumption as big band, BE BOP was invented...a musical form that was based on convoluted note structures (sometimes the exact same note "recipe" as a more popular counterpart but newly minted with more improv and MORE notes), smaller instrumental groupings and freer rhythmic patterns, ensuring that the music industry henchmen couldn't reproduce this music as easily as they had earlier jazz.
This is still happening today in Hip Hop culture. Fo Shizzle. The oppressed taking back what they created and tweaking it to represent them once more.
Because people read my blog, I am sometimes a little less apt to post what I am really feeling. I write about things that will amuse the masses to feed my little ego demon. But I think I need this blog to be a place where I can write about sad things, nay, depressing things...things that break my heart and experiences that I can't get rid of with just a pen and paper. Things that are so big in my soul that they require the vastness of cyberspace to contain them...lest my head implode. I want to write about God, bad dates, new crushes, old love that breaks me, my family, my job...things I shouldn't write about if other people are going to read it...things that I should filter. Things that I do filter.
Hence I will write only in arabic. It may take a year, but be-bop wasn't born in a day. I'm taking back my blog...and if you get bored or offended...so be it. And if you go out with me or care about me, I ask your forgiveness in advance.